Welcome to  my Saturday Morning posting cabinet 

03/15/09 - The best quote of the week comes out of Michigan!  Okay, there was a "DISAGREEMENT" between two women, that I know, and it took place in the ladies room of the company.   So, I ask the male manager why he didn't stop it, since from what I have found out it was a LOUD DISAGREEMENT.  His answer, "It was very loud and in the ladies room, which is outside my managerial responsibility!"

Don't you just love that answer above!!!   So, I did redo my corner to be more alphabetical in the Erotica table so I can figure which stories are not posted. 

03/07 Saturday night - As you can see I am changing things on my LdyJ corner and will have the next story ready to post mid week - figure about Wed.

Not my best picture but thought it may be nice to see me without a horse and in one of my collars.  Yes, that is one of a kind with a gold chain which intertwines through the leather and a amethyst on the end of the collar.    It is one of my favorites.   

Anyway, not much went on this week, which I think is good.  Didn't do bad on a diet - didn't lose yet this year BUT last year all toll I lost 13 pounds so if I can do that this year I shall be in my black leather skirt!!!!

02/25/09 - I revised the LdyJessika section and now have everything in order so by Friday I will be able to start posting again.   You will see many of the older stories being posted from 2000 but I have to get everything back out here on my site.

02/21/09 - I am finally getting things back to normal.  It has been a very , very, very (notice that was 3 very's) difficult week - it is now Saturday night and I know I have not posted a story and I truly apologize.  I know it seems like I keep saying that and that I am stalling around and not doing it.   I have such limited time for this month with lots and lots and lots (make that a 4 lots sentence not 3) BUT, tomorrow it is going to rain all day and I am spending the afternoon writing.   Give me another day and I will post.  LdyJ

02/11/09 - I am much calmer now and my boss did apologize and is under lots and lots of pressure with the money that the contractor "borrowed" (I am respecting the dead) and now having to come up with more for the sub-contractors.  Now, in all honesty I think he was murdered.  SO, I have put together a time-line and you can see it on the Time Line Page - I can't mention names because I think that is defamation of character other then his girlfriend because I don't believe she has any - she posted ON LINE in his Guest Book!  EGAD, how tacky can she be OR how mean spirited to  his kids!

02/10/09 - Yes, I did remove the "rant" about the contractor who ripped my boss off to the tune of $291K.  Want to know why?  When push comes to shove a boss is a boss.  Want to know why?  An employee shall I say voted for something my boss would not vote for!  So I stuck up for the employee even though I would not vote for it either.   So the ass turns to me and says his famous, "Get out of my office!"  Now, the problem this morning is I wasn't in such a subservient mood and said, "I don't do personal requests but you can say, "Please leave my office now" and I shall leave!!!  So the idiot said it.  So I left, then opened his door and said, "And, if you want to speak to me about anything you can call or else see you when you do."  And here I am nice and calm in my office and if I never speak to the idiot again fine!!!  His choice!  I can work just as efficiently through e-mail to him!  And here I frigging go stick up for him against the asshole contractor DK who rips him off, doesn't pay the subcontractors, commits suicide or gets done in, and I'm suppose to respect things and get yelled at!!!  FUCK!  He never told that fucker to get out of his fucking office!!!!   It was always him taking we will call him "Den boy's" opinion over mine,  Den boy can do no wrong - Den boy never got kicked out - I'm the fucking loyal employee sticking up for someone and I got kicked out?   My boss is an idiot! I - D - I - O - T!  

02/01/2009 -  Okay, I have struggled diet wise through December and January and lost the battle - that means I gained two pounds!   But today I realized I have to watch depression with eating!  I wanted to eat the refridge today!   Like I could have been a non-stop mouth!   So, I spent the day out in the barn - luckily horse grain and hay don't quite hold any attraction for me.  I could honestly say even if I poured Hershey chocolate fudge over hay it would not make me want to eat it SO that shows there is hope!    So, a nice bubble bath of lavender bubbles with nice oil - lilac and a cup of hot chamomile tea and I'm ready to get back on the work track AND writing to escape.    I adopted out two horses to cut down on expenses - of course that means I am crying non-stop for the next month about it!    Time to cut everything back as much as possible and then some.    So, I am going to start Monday the new work week with a new calm.  Try and Try and someday it will be set as a pattern and then you can try something else.

01/27 - I have to stay off that damn facebook.com site so I can get work done elsewhere!

01/17 January 17th - EGAD sitting here with a Starbuck Expresso Truffle.  Granted a small one but calorie ridden but oh so good!   Anyway, that was my treat for the month- now, here is a weird happening.  So, I find a website that shows a story of LdyJessika and the lead in sentence is one that I sat here and said, "I wouldn't use that language, I didn't write that!"  so it had the date back in 2006 and I go to my  site and OOPS.  I wrote it - X-rated sentence and all!    Then after searching more on the internet for me I found stories from 1998 I must have posted, lost, someone else has them on their site  - SO, I copied them back!  - One nice thing I must share that is everyone that is using my stories has kept my copyright on them!!  Thank you, everyone!   Okay, so I really like my stories!   I found some really good old ones I am spending today reading!    AND, now get this - I have to take out a small loan but rather then think of it that way I have decided that rather then save my Xmas club money of give or take about $30 a month - I am using it now and will use my monthly xmas club payment to pay the loan till Xmas!   Makes sense to me.   And, my resolution for this next week is to write.   I never stuck to a New Years so I am only  making one resolutions a week.    I am going to print out every story I own in hardcopy!   From everywhere I find one including half finished ones on old Zip drives - half written ones in shoeboxes in my closet!   Then I am going to organize and finish them!   Or put the ones I never finished on line and someone else can finish them!  Kind of like end the story yourself corner?   Not sure.  Anyway, that is it for a Saturday Truffle coffee break.

January 14th - I know I said I posted this old story Bess and I was sure I did but I can't find it on the Site!   I had written it for my Mom so I posted it now.   

January 10th - okay, it is safe to say I will chat at night.  In the morning's on Sat I get to the office about 6 AM to work on websites and had thought during coffee I would do this one. WRONG!  Time starts to go so quickly and on Saturday I have to get home at 9:30 so I can sleep an hour and then I start with the horses at 11AM and finish about 3 PM.   So, now I am sitting and have too many aches to do much else but chit chat!  NOW, for the good news - 15.5 pounds lost - Well, to be honest the minute I drink some water it will be back to 14.5 but for this moment in time after working with the horse ALL day I am going to relish 15.5.   I am doing okay at work - got the 1099's out but this year is going to be really rough - OH GEE as if you didn't know that.    I know I should help the economy and spend but I am so afraid if something happens I won't have money for rent and horses I have turned into saving even pennies in a jar!   A penny saved is a penny earned - WOW do I understand that now.  So, everyone hang in there if you have lost a job.   Posting a story will be Wed.   My computer was broke last week - but all fixed now.

Janury 3rd at 8:04 pm pst.   never ever ever type when you are inebriated which is the politcally correct way of saying shnockered.  But, I said I post on Saturday so saturday it is.   I went to dinner tonight at my boss.  That is nice since when I left work today I do recall telling him to go to hell.  That, incase you don't know, is not politically correct but I didn't quite say it to him.  I kind of said it after I left his office and closed his door.  NO, I did not slam it - he ruined that for me by getting one of those things on the door top that when it closes it closes slow.   I learned that when I tried once to slam it and it only went hssssssss and I kept pulling and pulling it and did hear him laugh.   I think that was rude of him.  Now today's interesting discussion after a really good work day (I should have just said see ya and left on a good note) revolved around taxes, horses, auctions, and somehow I was trying to explain about slaughter houses and he was getting more and more angry and somehow he said, "IT IS BECAUSE OF PEOPLE LIKE YOU! yada yada"   People like me?  I fucking do due diligence before I make and opinion on anything!   Those were the words that really pissed me off!!! Like me?  He would e fucking lucky having more people like me working for him!!!!   So, I tried to get things calmer but he was now on a soap box!   yada yada - blah blah - righteous only he is right!  SO, I just politedly or not so politedly said JESUS CHRIST!  then walked out and of course parted with go to hell.   SO, tonight when he poured my glass of wine I said, "Thanks people like me like wine!"  Okay, i have not quite learned to shut my mouth!   My husband said to me, "was that really necessary!"  I did say no but it felt good = but now I am quite plastered and don't feel like re=reading the above for corrections.  heading for sleep.  I am sure at work tomoroow I will be more polite.  OH , and don't look for a story until Wed.  I haven't corrected anything.   AND don't any of yu drink - it is iuseless calories and now I will bitch that I haven't lost weight.  

December 30th - FAINT - I found a fun story from 1999 and will get the second chapter posted next Sunday!

December 28th - Yes, I am a day late for my chit chat page.  I think I have been on a Xmas Food Hangover!   No energy - what did I eat?  I think it was the potato chips that did my system into salt hell!   The best gift I gave to someone was the one that cost me no money!  I wrote to some of my international customers for their favorite recipe and put all the e-mails in a book and she loved it!!!!   So, now I am counting down to New Years and I will assume I will gain three pounds over Xmas and New Year so all toll this year is the first year I have lost weight and that would be 12 pounds.  SO, about then more to go and that should do it.   BUT, no butt puns intended I will look at it and decide at that time.  So, posting for a story will be Wed.

Dec 20th at 10:27 AM PST - Well, my  new rule is always calm down for 24 hours before trashing your boss on line.  I have waited and am pleased to tell you that I have not calmed down.  SO, yesterday was the Xmas party - yes, I was late for work.  BUT, I tried on every frigging outfit I had in my closet trying to find one that was business yet casual - classy yet relaxed.   Finally, only my mirror would say is you still look pudgy and still have the ugly black hair from leaving the hair dye on too long.   SO, I put on a stupid black skirt and white sweater and black jacket - I looked like a fucking police squad car!!!  All I needed was the number 54 on my ass and it would have been that old series Car 54 Where Are you!    SO, now I am at my desk and a website is stuck on the screen from yesterday.  Control-alt-Delete and nothing!  Still can't get the damn thing off - NO, I have no fucking idea why!   In walks Mr. Boss!   Does he say hello?  NOT!  he yells why am I working on a website and not getting him the figures!  A. I have two monitors on my desk so I can do two things at once and he was looking at the wrong one!  B)  Granted, I was late but I had gone in and told him I was late!  C)  I said I am trying to do them as quickly as I can   D)  He yells!   E) I can't think when someone yells I go blank.  F)  He says he wants the figures by 9:00 (which is in three minutes)   G)  I got upset and in a snit - so I said, "I can't work while you stand here and yell - if you go I can get them done.  SO, he yells more!"  Now, that will help me get out of a snit!  SO THEN I really got upset and told him to just leave and I'll do it!!!!

Fine - so I go over to his stupid office with 1 minute to go!  I made his STUPID 9:00 - I said, "here and I have a minute left" - well, maybe I could have not said that but does he say, Good Girl! - does he say, Oh jessy I am so sorry I yelled - does he say, "Now, Jessika, I was just mad you were late and let's forget it"  -NOT!  HE SAYS, "stop being such an asshole."    WHAT!  WHAT!  what happened to the Oh Jessika, I'm sorry I was upset at you!   WHERE THE HELL IS THAT IN HIS FUCKING BRAIN???????  

So, I politely said "EAT DIRT!" and went back to my office.  Oh, and I haven't really spoken to him since but yesterday was Friday and he hasn't noticed!!!!!!!     AND I don't care if the above is not politically correct!!!!!   AND it was also the Xmas party and I had a really, really, really (and notice that was 3 really's) special picture made for him of a horse and I should have hit him with it!  

December 15th - Monday evening 8:00 PST.  I am going through my archives of stories - so many not posted - THEN, I came across a story called Birthday!  EGAD - it was my 50th!!!   I remember that was such an important milestone, so to speak.  I went out and dyed my hair blonde!  I looked like crap BUT I did always want to be blonde.  Did I have more fun?  Not!   Anyway, I posted it.   Yes, I know it was written 9 years ago!   But when you have been writing for about 18 years you tend to find stories all over the house in boxes, in books, in binders, on floppy disks (remember those?) - SO, I really want to get some of the old ones out on the server that I tend now to use as a filing cabinet.   Enjoy!  And in all things keep dreaming and knowing you are as strong as you need to be - even at times when you want to give up.  Keep going.

Dec. 13th Saturday 8:46 PST - COFFEE BREAK!

Is it New Year's yet.  Is the food over yet?   If anyone has seen my diet please return it - I have apparently lost it!   Well, the good news is I am employed so the horses can stay rescued!    I have decided I am buying a Xmas tree!  Just a small one - a short fluffy one!  But then I feel badly a tree was cut down so maybe I will buy a small real one in a pot and try and grow it.   OR, maybe I will buy a cactus since we are in California and decorate that.  I guess I can decorate a saddle if nothing else.  Anyway, I am going to do something.  Other then that I am cold!  This said living in Livermore, CA is really pushing the envelope since it doesn't snow.   

SO now for any LS-DYNA users that are now unemployed there is a "free" limited license now in place through December 2009 for US only - well as of a few minutes ago it is available when I kind of did my own version of a bail out!!!  So, you know where and who to contact for your 2009 free limited LS-DYNA license. 

Now for all you union people who will get mad at me - and I am all for the unions - BUT it is the welfare fund part of the Machinists Union, that is pulling companies down - it is an "orphan" type - SO every company that goes out the remaining have to pick up the tab.   I know two companies that wanted to get into another welfare fund in the union plan and Machinists Unions said NO - tough.   Excuse me but how stupid is that?  They didn't say they wanted to drop the fucking union just do a different welfare fund IN the union.   So, instead they went bankrupt, since you have to pay to change!   Oh good now no one is working!!!   I am in the union, so if I say part of it is stupid - believe me it is dumb to have a company go out since they could not afford the welfare fund as it is now and didn't have enough money to pay the union to change to the other welfare fund!

Okay, enough babble - I know you want me to finish the Castlewood Chapter and stop bitching about things.   

Saturday November 29th - EGAD Thanksgiving was a calorie hell but hmmm good.   Not much is new - almost the end of the year and this time of year as we all know is calorie hell BUT I am going to do my best to hold my own.   I have a lot to accomplish in the next few weeks between writing, horse training, hors riding, and my 40 hour a week job BUT I am thankful for all of you that write to me with suggestions.  It makes doing everything so much easier when there is just too much to get done.   So, I shall sit here and have my coffee and start finishing stories.  And for all of us that have had a very rough financial year we need to go very slowly and just not worry about what happened or what we had to give up and for what reason.  Just start to climb back out of the hole and keep moving.

Saturday Night - Nov. 22nd - Okay - For Xmas this year I am using my handy camera - or handy music download - or handy used book store - or something like that.   Anyway, are we all on the countdown to Xmas?  New Year?   My resolution will be to continue to just try and relax more.  But, the economy has me so neurotic and we need rain!  Oh if we only had rain the pasture would grow and the horses would not have to be supplemented!  Okay, that was the bitching for the night.   All in all things are fine this week.

Sunday - Nov 16th - Yes, I do realize it is not Saturday morning but I slept late.   Actually, sitting here drinking my coffee I feel like I want to go back to sleep BUT, then I also feel like writing, and have to exercise my pony because I am losing weight and he is gaining.   SO, Monday, even though it is very expensive now for grass hay - he is getting grass hay rather then the mix we now use which is grass/alfalfa.   That is like going to lettuce without those tasty croutons!  BORING!   Does anyone realize the end of the year is about six weeks away!   For Xmas this year we are a tad broke BUT I remember when I was little we gave gifts we made,  I guess now that is seen as being cheap or broke and it seems unless it costs upward of $50 it is still considered cheap or that you are broke.  This year we are looking a tad at gifts in the $10-15 dollar range and consider $25 a damn expensive gift!  But even a gift card at Starbucks that only buys I think about 4 coffee's!!!   I don't buy coffee, I bring my own to work from home.   People ask me how I can afford horses, as they stand there with a cup of coffee, that buy one each day and at the end of the week would buy a bale of hay!    I think it is called "doing without!" and putting your priorities different places.   Anyway, for anyone that is in the financial valley of the broke, don't let the holidays get you more bummed out - I think we all have to go back to basics!   Just too caught up in the buzzing, techno, world - Reminds me of the book The Velveteen Rabbit!  So, the good news is Adult Story Corner is self sufficient and has been free since 1996 and will continue into 2009 FREEEEEEEE to read.   I know I can hear someone out there saying, "Jessika, please stop talking and go finish the next chapter!"  See you all Monday night!

Sat  - Nov 8th.  Darn, it is cold out today for sunny california!   Anyway, not working with the horses today but maybe later after I finish the story.   I rode Cody yesterday and he was bored SO I let him go over the jumps - but put them flat on the ground.  I do not ride where he can jump high over them  - I use a western saddle, but he enjoyed trotting over them.   Well so much for all my treadmill walking and leg work because I can't walk today!  And I mean I feel like I did about one million wide stance squats!  Oh damn that pony is rounder then I thought when posting over and over on those jumps -   Unless it is a very skinny horse I don't think I can swing onto the saddle today!!!    Other then that I have done very well this year on my diet and if things even stay on hold for the new year I will be an official 14 pounds less then last year!    No particular diet but during the day I don't eat junk at all!   Well, most days not at all.  Okay, off to write and soak in a nice hot tub!  Unfortunately it isn't for erotica reasons it is because my mind wrote checks that the old body could not cash!!!!  grin!

I finished correcting chapter 1 of Anthony written a year ago but chapter 2 will take longer then Sunday so I figure I may as well get it posted today since it is still cold and I still can't swing my leg to get on a horse!  

Sat - November 01 - Can you believe it is November!   It is 12:44 here in California and it is raining, which is nice.  I don't have to go outside and can sit here and go over a story that I will actually post Monday night.   And, although I did say I was sick of schedules - I have found I do so much better on a time line!  Actually, without one I find I tend to sit and can't think what I should do.  So, right now?  I am going to make a cup of coffee, tuna fish sandwich and finish going over a story I wrote in 1999!  

Sat - Oct 25th - Can you believe I am sick, again!  Crap!  I was heathier when I didn't lose 15 pounds!  Okay, so you want to see my Korea picture from the Engineering conference?  I had to crop out the other people, because somehow I don't think they intend to be on an adult site!  Okay, complete with gray hair coming in!!!  EGAD!  Now I have no idea why in one picture I have on glasses and my leather collar and in another I don't have on glasses and a necklace - OH could it be that during this SAME day I got pissed off at a certain man attending the conference, and turned into an alter personality???  HMMM?  - sub, dominatrix - gee, will the real LdyJ please stand up?  Okay, going home with this damn cold and will try and finish a story!  I did start one during a conference where Dr. D.B was giving a lecture, NOT that he was boring - just that it was a good opportunity to write!!!

Sat - Oct 18th - So, how did Korea go?  Not very well thank you, but business wise I guess we can say it was successful - if you are into Finite Element Analysis.   There was this man at dinner, of all days, my birthday dinner.  He was sitting on the other side of my boss and I was on the the side.  So this man is going on and on how he likes to go to this one restaurant, because he can get dog.  Yes, that was d-o-g like in eat dog.    Okay, I was really cool and not wanting to offend the China Man, I just smiled and didn't say anything - but on, and on, and on, and on he kept talking about eating dog.  SO, I very quietly said to him can we change the subject - NOT.  I think he enjoyed it.  SO, after many minutes of trying to be polite - OOPS!  Alter personality time, I guess!

I very quietly leaned in back of my boss and whispered to the man, "you keep talking and I'll rip your balls off."    Well, that shut him up, but it also got my boss just furious with me - I got this frigging lecture when we got back to the hotel.    Well, it isn't like I threatened to  shove them down the guys throat - I just wanted him to shut up about eating dog!!!!    So, you can see I am always a tad in trouble with my boss.

Sat - Sept 20th - Well, I was going to rant yesterday but it would have involved calling my boss a bad name, and I wanted to hit him on the nose with a newspaper yelling, "Bad boss, Bad, Bad, Bad" -  "Mean Boss, Rude, Rude, Rude!" 

  There, now I feel much better.   I was really, really trying to explain something to him but I can't explain fast enough -  then I try faster to really explain because he interjects something and I get thrown off.  SO I start over-explaining and then he just gets mad and yells at me to kind of G-Damit SHUT UP!  

I told my husband and, of course Don always is calm and has great advice.  Don suggested that my boss and I talk from different rooms using walkie talkies so we have to click and say "over" - that way  the other person knows when the other is done with a thought, and it is time for them to talk.  Also then my boss can just put the walkie talkie down on his desk, while I talk and he can do other work until I say "over" - So, that is my human resource top for the week.     The other is don't yell at me in the phone, because I tend to answer: "If you G-Damit one more time at me I'm going to hit you in the nose!"   That is not very mature thing to say as well as being  insubordination and I think threatening, even while crying.   So, it was not a very happy Friday at work - so I went shopping rather then sit there angry.  I was wise enough to send him and e-mail that I had a doctor's appointment.

Thurs - mid week rant!  Sept. 18th

I am suppose to be riding a horse now, here in California at 5:52 P.M.!  Why am I not?  I'm fucking tired.    I am a living chore!   I excel at turning anything pleasurable into a chore, where it is all performance based.   

Ride on a schedule, fuck on a schedule, work on a schedule, sleep on a schedule, exercise all on a schedule AND let's also schedule in two mornings a week where I sleep an extra hour, so I can say nothing is scheduled (which in itself is a schedule).   

AND then budget, budget, check the money balance daily on line, worry about the money, try and save the money - then find out there is an emergency (car, horse, bunnies) and have to spend the entire savings - AND let's not forget diet!   eat, be frustrated, so fuck it and eat what you want - THEN schedule the gym twice as much 

And for what am I doing all of this?   I have no fucking idea!    I think I have been responsible so long that I've lost why I am even being responsible - other then it is another chore to be done.  Wait, the horses need hay - schedule hay,  then schedule quick cash to cover the hay.  THEN figure what I can schedule later instead of now because the horses need the hay today and payday is on the 30th.   

So, I have decided at this moment I am a living chore and my title should be President Adult Chore Corner.  Well, now it is time to go clean stalls and at times it is nice to throw shit then have to put up with shit.  Because putting up with shit is a chore - grin!   The daily rant by LdyJ

Saturday - the 14th of September:   I just love a cup of coffee!  NO, I am not stuffing a pastry in my mouth!   This past week I revised Chapter 3 of the Chandler Series and it will be posted tomorrow.  I think I am enjoying re-reading and fixing parts of the story as much as I did when I wrote it.  DAMN, I like that series!   I almost have all the ranch work down to a schedule now that it stays darker in the mornings.  Can't feed at 5:30 A.M. since I can't see out in some of the pastures.  And I like to give the night animals time to go home and get off the property or go hide somewhere so we don't quite run into each other.   Now don't forget Oct5th I have to go to Japan for an engineering conference and then to Korea for an engineering conference and will be back on the 15th.   Yes, I am spending my birthday in Korea!  I wonder if they have chocolate cake in Korea?  I've never been there so this is my first time going to the LS-DYNA Korea Users Conference.   I'll let you know if I find a birthday cake!  

Saturday September 6th.   So, I went to see if I could withdraw my holiday club but first I asked when it was due to be released into my checking.  When they said not until Nov. 1st I got too embarrassed to say I needed it now, and instead deposited $20 into my checking account.  Then I had to go to the ATM and withdraw back my $20.   So, if you haven't figured it out I am a tad broke at the moment.  That is incase anyone thought I was rolling in money I budget tighter then a mosquito's ass!   And I mean even with all the horses, even they have to give up certain things.    But, we all make it every  month so that is a blessing.    And I have volunteers that come here and help with the horses, riding and paying attention to them and they help for free so that is also a blessing.  WOW, I sound like a minister blessing everything!    And I know you are all saying well we can understand you have to muck out stalls but where is the damn story!!!   So, you will have it posted on Sunday night PST about 9 P.M.

Saturday August 30, 2008 7:26 P.M.

I didn't get to have my coffee this morning so here I am having it now.  I worked in my office this morning and then worked with our new miniature horse Dusty - he has the blue eyes.

The other one is our Quincy - SO I talked and talked and finally I could get a tad closer to Dusty.   Other then that I had a really nice week and am trying to practice that it isn't what the other person does but how I want to deal with what they do.   I can just go let it get me crazy or just shine it on - a great expression by someone I had met over 30 years ago in Venice Beach California named Dorcas Vaughn always said "just shine it on".

Saturday August 23, 2008 about 10:45 A.M PST.

Now, work was actually okay - I didn't feel like kicking anyone out of my office other then my boss!    That man can be SO infuriating!  I came SO close to saying please just get out of my office.  BUT, this voice in my head said, "UH, Jessika!  He owns your office!"   Can't quite kick someone out of something that he owns.  It ruins the effect. So instead I got mad and said, "You know, I have my own damn problems." Then I turned back to my computer.   He left, but I think he was laughing!   That also ruins the effect of me getting mad at my boss.   I know he tries not to, but I swear he looks like he wants to laugh when I'm ranting and raving!    Someone should tell him he is suppose to look concerned, worried and in FEAR!  So, since I was in my professional personality, but acting like my Jessika personality, I was also arguing with my professional personality.  Talk about brain conflict!!!!    So,  I came home for lunch and dyed my hair dark brown!   Now I look weird and nothing got solved about my problems - so I have problems and weird color hair!     I really must try yoga at work when my boss comes in sticking up for some dolt, and  I get upset over it  - maybe I can sit, close my eyes and take deep breaths with the mantra: dolt, dolt.   I'll try it next time as a human resource proactive new system.   

I did not sell any of my horses - none of the three sold and now I am tired of people coming to look.   One person said my Shane was barn sour!  BARN SOUR!!!!    Okay, Shane refused to do anything and looked really dumb!   I mean he wouldn't even leave the gate, turn, move.   It was like he knew NOTHING!   Next day I rode him and OOOPS he did everything!    I think he isn't barn sour but BRAIN SOUR!   

Okay, off to the barn to ride - then bubble bath - glass of nice Merlot and write stories.   That sounds like a good Saturday, doesn't it.

08-16-08  I am so happy I don't want to drink any water!  WHAT, you say?  Okay, so you know when you step on a scale and instead of being on the 0 or 5 it FINALLY goes to a 9 in the next lower amount or the 4 or even 4.5 or 9.5 it is THAT next one down!!!   I know if I drink or eat anything it will move!   Okay, that was my news but I am now going to have my coffee and drink my water but wanted to share with you just keep doing healthy things.  My goal is to cut my gym card in half!!!   

08-09-08  - It is Saturday, Livermore, CA give or take by the time I post this about 9:00 A.M - yesterday I took a day off from work and spent it with my horses, we brought everyone in the stalls which to them is a treat from being in the pasture (for about two days and then they hate it!)  -  I rode Cody - he acted like he was bored and exhausted.  So much for me thinking he missed me riding him!   Work was actually very calm last week.  I am now practicing don't bite the bait - just ignore the idiots you run into.  They are really just not worth getting upset, mad, or even gritting my teeth.  So, every Saturday is going to be the start of my new week.  That means so far no one has upset me here at work - grin!  Of course, no one but me is in the office on a Saturday this early - HEY, the woman is SMART!   SHIT! the front beeper just went off which means someone came in the building - so much for only me being at work!  I went shopping yesterday but only bought horse supplies!  I need to buy myself a nice new something.  Not sure what - but a nice new blouse, or leather bra? or, or, or.  Nothing expensive, since as everyone knows everyone in the US is having hard times with cash flow.   True, I have rescued horses but believe me they live on a budget even on their hay!   Luckily the person that owns the pasture lets me keep them there free since they keep it grazed down.  That keeps him from having to pay someone to plow it or mow it, etc.   Okay, I am heading back home, having another cup of coffee - heading then to ride AND then going to write and post tomorrow night.  LdyJessika^® 

08/07/2008 - Okay, Casey, our paint, who I was going to sell, now can't be sold!  He is limping - had the vet out - Casey has an abscess high in his hoof up by the coronet band.   Now, what does that have to do with erotica?  NOTHING! but that's what I was doing last evening instead of writing stories - soaking a horse hoof.   But, today, Thursday, if I get my ass in gear and get work done at my day job I will take Friday off - ride horses, train horses, and THEN relax and write stories!   Reality just keeps getting in the way!

From last week - Yes, I have started an archive of my rants!  Yes, I have figured out a schedule and yes, I have lost 10 lbs and still hate working out!  You can read it in the filing cabinet.  Yes, I have no idea how to sort my new idea of the filing cabinet, so it will probably be messy, for a while, and keep changing formats.   It isn't a blog so I am not using that type of software.   I will not archive just notes like the above just explaining things.  I am only archiving my soap box rants or my psycho babble when I'm really in a snit.  

Saturday August 2nd

Welcome to Saturday Morning Coffee with me.   It is 8:05 a.m. in Livermore, CA.   I have my schedule fairly decent now.  Saturday mornings I have my coffee, here, and catch you up on the past week and what I hope to accomplish next week.  Posting is Sunday evening.  Sunday morning I do ranch work, afternoon is horse training, then dinner with husband, posting and pass out exhausted!!!

I have lost 10 pounds since Jan. BUT, being honest it was really the past three months.   My goal is to get another 10 off and never see a gym again.  No, I have not had some personality wonder altering where I look forward to working out in a gym.  HATE IT!  

Now where does the writing time come in?  I am going to try and do it at work on my breaks.  Realizing an engineering company may not be the best place to try and get out of reality to write erotica I doubt that will work!  And one can't just pick a time and say WRITE! WRITE!   I think I will try for a night a week and then Saturday afternoons for posting on Sunday.

I did very well at work, I wanted to tell someone to go fuck off but that would not be very politically correct.  But this man is so frigging annoying!   If he tells me one more time, "You, know if you don't price this right, they will look at something else!  You know if you don't yada, yada,  I've already spoken to XXXX about this and he's aware!"   I finally said, "Don't worry about it and don't get involved."   This man is ALWAYS getting involved and he screws things up and isn't even in my department!   He is and old friend of the boss.   Hell, I'm 59 and love working, but he constantly makes me think he should be the poster man of WHY people should retire, or stay the fuck out of a business department they were never in, when they were working.   I guess in every company there has to be one, that just thinks he knows everything when he doesn't.  He is a good engineer, he just doesn't know shit about business.  Oh crap!  next week will be the same yada yada shit from him!   I really will try and walk away from him - stay tuned!